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​Broken Hearts Mend

双心奇遇

    樱花在窗外漫天飞舞。花园里的玫瑰含苞待放。一个宁静的夜晚,屋子里一片祥和,我同家人享用着晚膳。随着手机的震动声,一条消息弹出。我顺手右滑解锁了手机,阅读后我当场呆住了。
    -“紧急状态宣言即将在21号解除,我们要不要一起去哪里逛逛呀?”-
    我几度确认,甚至不敢相信自己的眼睛。
    我不禁叫出声,“是Riko发来的耶。”
    我手指不紧不慢地敲出了,“好啊好啊!!你什么时候有空?”
    到此为止,我以为她只是客气。思绪在脑海中翻滚,心里乱糟糟的。那天还是中学的毕业典礼。明明刚从学校回来,为三年的初中生活落下帷幕,正沉浸在离别的悲伤里。各种各样的情绪交织在一起,在胸腔里对战。
    几个日出日落后,我们将时间定在了一周后的星期六。比起喜悦,我更多的是难以置信,从没想过我和Riko会再在一起出门,我以为我们早已不可能了。见面前一天的夜晚,不知是兴奋还是担忧,我一直处在半梦半醒的状态中游离直至黎明。一瞬间仿佛回忆把我带回了两年前。
    在那还懵懵懂懂的时光,校园里到处绿油油的,一片生机勃勃的景象。Riko是我在校园中交到的第一个朋友,也是当时最好的朋友。我们曾形影不离,恨不得天天黏在一起。可惜在那年暑假的前两天一切都结束了。那个闷热的午间休息。走廊中泛着金色。许是燥热的天气让人闷得慌,我们大吵了一架。
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    “我们不是朋友吗?”
    面对我的质问,她只是很淡定的一句,“当然不是啊。”
    眼眶一下就湿润了,“这样啊。我知道了。”
       我说着转身进了教室,趴在桌子上望着窗外的植被发呆。
    之后我们表面和解了,却也这样当了三年的“陌生人”…… 
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    窗外的春阳透过帘子的缝隙洒进眼眸。我迷迷糊糊地睁开眼睛,朦胧间腹部隐隐作痛,不禁担忧。三年了,我们都在刻意回避着对方。我根本不知她对什么感兴趣,担心无话可说会很无趣。
    果然......起初便如我所料......一度陷入僵局。
    我从床上弹起来,开始打扮自己。从服饰至妆发再至饰品与背包,全是我精心准备的。我站在镜子前仔细打量着自己,生怕有一丝不完美。
    时间已经来不及,我赶紧夺门而出。黑色的高跟鞋在水泥地上奔走。咚咚咚的脚步声越来越急促。咔嗒。崴脚了。来不及检查。我知道一定来不及了,拿出手机发了一条消息表示要迟到。终于抵达约定地点。四处张望,却不见她的身影。有些彷徨。我迟到了一分钟。我的心一震,是她先走了吗?我应该提前到的。我拿手机想再度确认,这时Riko才出现在转角处姗姗来迟。她没有化妆,却美似童话世界里的公主,让我的心跳都慢了一拍。我们很默契的都选择了紫色。紫色的毛线衣。紫色的长裙。仿佛事先搭配的姐妹装。
    刷交通卡,乘自动扶梯,上了电车。伴随着鸣笛声,电车在轨道上奔驰。人群中,我们都站着,始终保持着适当的距离。我不敢直视她的双眸。手心不停冒汗。大脑飞速旋转。心中激起一阵阵的涟漪。我双腿发麻。明明一周前的毕业典礼我们才见过面。可是,此情此景谁都没有开口打破这沉寂。许是因为习惯当“陌生人”了吧。车内的空气让我窒息。前座空了,本打算坐下,却想到曾听闻和日本朋友一起出去时,一个人坐下是很不礼貌的。好在下一站旁边的一个座位也空了,我们对视一眼坐了一下来。依然沉默着。我只敢端坐着,背不靠椅背,双脚并拢微微发力,双手合十放在腿上,呆滞的眼神麻木地望着前方。
    大脑逐渐空白……滴答滴答……我数着一秒一秒;每一秒都似一个小时般漫长。这是我从东小金井站到新宿站最悠长的一次。我想划捏在手里的手机,可这也是不礼貌。我想聊天,可是她双唇紧闭也很不自在。电车摇摇晃晃地行驶着,睡意来袭,上下眼皮开始打架。我强撑着,在我快坚持不住的时候,电车终于驶入新宿站。
    我们换乘临海线直达东京电视塔站。出站后,我们决定四处逛逛。我曾到访过台场无数次,但这是Riko的第一次。我们走到台场海滨公园对街的天桥上。
    其实,这条路我们走过好几次,但每次的心情都不同。
    我们没有牵手;没有肢体接触;步伐也不一致,彼此在尽力迎合对方的步伐。
    “今天的天气好好啊。天好蓝啊。”我说。
    “嗯,是个大晴天。”Riko附和着。
    继续往前走。
    湛蓝的天空上挂着一颗明亮的太阳,万里晴空中找不到一片白云。太阳照耀在皮肤上微微发热,驱散了仅有的寒冷。微风吹来樱花的气息,原来是天桥下那一排樱花树的功劳。树后就是蔚蓝的大海。不远处竖立着一座自由女神的雕像,美丽而端庄。在磁浮车站的地方,我们转弯了。笔直步行几步后,映入眼帘的是郁金香和樱花的花海,浓郁的芬芳扑鼻而来。除此之外,还有熙熙攘攘的人群和在一台超大型的机器人。他伸手就能触到天空,是顶天立地的存在。并肩穿过樱花树铺成的道路,花瓣在头顶飞舞,像雪花般轻盈地飘落到地上。随着两侧的樱树往后倒去,我不禁感叹:这般被粉色渲染的台场,我还是第一次见。
    午餐是在一家仿威尼斯的商场里的中餐厅解决的。不经意间解开了一年级时的误会。有些话,有些事执着便会成为执念,说开了心结便解了,终于释怀。
    日头最大的时光我们选择在Teamlab中度过。我们和母亲在入口处碰头。Riko在见到她后似乎变得抖抖索索,好不容易建立起来的熟悉感荡然无存。这尴尬的场景,仿佛将我带回了早上那令人压抑的车箱里。
       母亲只是将我们送进去后便找了个借口离开了,还是我们两个人相处的时间。一进去就三条分岔路口,犹如人生的分岔路口。我和Riko选择了最左侧的一条路。里面很昏暗,伸手不见五指,只能隐约看清脚下的路;可能是开着空调,凉凉的冷风吹在身上,鸡皮疙瘩起了一身,我顿感毛骨悚然。
    “这么黑,要是我俩走散了,可不好找啊。”说着,我主动靠过去挽起了Riko的手臂,自己的半个身子都贴在她身上。
    这个动作是那么自然。许是因为这里太黑了,我们都有点害怕吧。场景推了我们一把,让我们的距离更近了。之后我们熟悉了彼此,手再没有松开。我的心墙好像被逐个击碎,像是多年未见的老友一般。
    在漆黑隧道的尽头,映入眼帘的是鲜花盛开蝴蝶乱窜的景致。将我们拉入了一个由光编织的梦幻世界。我们一同绘制了一条鱼,并在上面写上V&R,正是我们名字的首字母。它是我们友谊的见证。我们把这条鱼放生在了屏幕中的大海,就让我们的友谊亦如这条鱼,在浩瀚的海洋中畅游吧。另一个让我印象最深的是一场5D电影。我们躺在一个吊床上仰望着星空,随着电影的变换星空也在变换,我感受到了宇宙的巨大能量。这是一场视觉,听觉,嗅觉和触觉的享受。
    我们呆了三个多小时。走出Teamlab…… 越来越亮……外面刺眼的阳光射进双眸。我如梦初醒,里面发生的一切就如同一场梦。我和Riko的故事也如同一场梦。
    之后我们再度回到了天桥,却没了早上的生疏,Riko变得侃侃而谈。我们穿过自由女神的雕像,步行到海滨公园。大海近在咫尺,眺望连接海湾的彩虹桥。那天的风浪不大,大海中白色的浪花卷着波浪一次又一次拍打在岸边的礁石上,海风吹来了咸涩的海水味。一艘游轮缓缓从眼前驶过。随后一阵笑声吸引了我们的视线,原来在眼下的礁石上坐着一群身穿制服的女学生们,她们正边吃边嬉闹着。
    在我的提议下,我们在岸边拍起了录相。
    “哈喽,大家好。我是Vivian。今天是2021年3月28号。我和Riko一起来到了台场……”Riko在相机前如寒羞草般较少说话,几乎都是我一人在饶有兴致地介绍。
    忽然听到身后传来母亲的声音,我们猛然回头。真的是母亲。她给我们拍了三年来除了集体照外唯一的一张合影。已到黄昏时分,天空在不知不觉间被渲染成了橘色。西下的斜阳又大又温暖,眼前的景象像是套了一层滤镜般富有诗意。
    我们去了一家购物中心喝奶茶。我应景地点了一杯樱花味的奶茶。在那里,我终于卸下了最后一道心防。我看着褐色的珍珠一颗一颗伴着奶茶穿过她的吸管。
    深吸了一口气后说,“这是我曾经写过的回忆录。讲述了我们初一时的故事,里面是没有虚假的。如果你愿意的话,读一下吧。”
    我把手机递了过去,她是第一位阅读这篇回忆录的同学。文章描绘的是以我的视角看到的世界。Riko很耐心仔细的读了每一个字,回忆录里角色的名字都做过修改,但Riko的火眼金睛一眼便知道谁是谁。这不仅因为她也是当事人,更因为我一年级时的好友几乎都是她介绍认识的。
    喝完奶茶出来,天声已然完全暗了下来,一点余光都没有了,取而代之的是周围灯火通明的繁华都市。我们散步着去看观览车,再度步入那条樱花道,现在已经没什么人了,显得有些寂静。这次我举着手机边录像边聊天。终于抵达了观览车,望着眼前这硕大的观览车,不停的变换着颜色,打出不同的灯光。它是夜晚的一道亮丽的风景线。我和Riko对视了一眼,不约而同的笑了,因为我们都想到了一件事-我们两个的另一位共同好友;毕业后去游乐场坐观览车,却因为地震被困在了顶上,被吓得半死。
    我们踏上了回程的电车。电车上我们一个话题接着一个话题的聊。彼此感慨已经逝去的初中生活。聊共同的朋友。聊刚刚读完的回忆录。聊中考的心得。还有很多很多…… Riko说她最怀念初二的时光,是因为那时大家都已经熟悉彼此了,却又不像初三有了新冠疫情的阻碍。初二的移动教室是她印象最深的活动,可惜那次活动我并未参加。
    一转眼就回到了东小金井站,可我感觉才刚上车没多久。
    “今天真的很开心,谢谢你啊。”Riko说。
    “是啊,我也是。我们在台场呆了八个小时,跟平时在学校的时间一样了。”我说。
    “嗯。但是感觉好快呀。”
    “美好的时光总是转瞬即逝,是我们太快乐了吧。我很高兴我选对地方了,之前还担心你不喜欢来着。”
    “那个地方很奇妙,我都不知道有这样的地方。不过我家里还有事,我得赶紧回家了。”
    “哦~,这样啊。”
    她骑上自行车走了。
    我冲着她的背影大喊,“以后有机会再一起玩!”
    “嗯!”她回复。
    那日的深夜,夜风从半开的窗户嗖嗖地灌进房间,带来些许凉意。我思考得出神。直到那日我才明白,人与人的相遇就是缘分,有些人兜兜转转最终还是会走到一起。聊得来的人即便分开许久,只要有机会,依然还能像原来一般的。原来凡事不等到最后一刻便永远不知道会发生什么。
        一朵粉色的樱花不知何时飘过了窗檐,落在了我手旁,为这一段记忆染上绯色的印记……

Broken Hearts Mend

The cherry blossoms were dancing in the sky, and the roses in the garden were about to bloom. A quiet night, the house was peaceful, and I had dinner with my family. As the phone vibrates, a message pops up. I swiped right and unlocked the phone. After reading it, I was stunned.

"The state of emergency declaration will be lifted on the 21st. Shall we go shopping together?"-

I confirmed it several times, and I could not believe my eyes.

I could not help but yell, "It's from Riko."

I tapped out with my fingers unhurriedly, "Okay, okay! When will you be free?"
 
So far, I thought she was being polite. But, thoughts rolled in my mind, and my heart was messed up. It was the graduation ceremony of middle school that day. The curtain ended the three-year junior high school life just coming back from school, and I was immersed in the sadness of parting. All kinds of emotions are intertwined, fighting in the chest.

After a few sunrises and sunsets, we set the time on Saturday a week later. I was more unbelievable than joy. I never thought that Riko and I would go out together again. I thought it would be impossible for us. Seeing the night of the day before, I do not know whether it was excitement or worry. I have been wandering in a half-dream and half-awake state until dawn. It seemed as if a memory brought me back two years ago for a moment.

The campus was full of green and vibrant scenes in that ignorant time. Riko was the first friend I made on campus and the best friend at the time. We were inseparable, and we wished to stick together every day. It was a pity that everything was over in the first two days of the summer vacation that year — that sultry lunch break. The corridor was glowing with gold. Perhaps the hot weather made people panic, and we had a big fight.

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"Aren't we friends?"

Faced with my question, she calmly said, "Of course not."

The eye became moist, "That's it. I see."

As I said, I turned around and entered the classroom, lying on the table looking at the vegetation outside the window in a daze.

After that, we reconciled on the surface, but we also became "strangers" for three years...


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The spring sun outside the window spilled into the eyes through the gap of the curtain. I opened my eyes in a daze, my abdomen aching dimly, and I could not help worrying. For three years, we have been avoiding each other deliberately. I do not even know what she is interested in. I am worried that having nothing to say will be boring.

Sure enough...At first, it was as I expected...it was at a deadlock.

I bounced off the bed and started to dress. From clothing to makeup to accessories and backpacks, I carefully prepared everything. Finally, I stood in front of the mirror and looked at myself carefully for dread of a trace of imperfection.

Time was too late; I rushed out of the door. Black high heels are running on the concrete floor. Clop, clop, clop, footsteps are getting faster and faster. Click. It is crippled. Too late to check. I knew it must be too late, so I took out my phone and sent a message saying that I would be late. Finally arrived at the agreed place. I looked around, but she did not see her. Some hesitated. I was one minute late. My heart trembled. Did she leave first? I should have arrived early. I took the phone to confirm again; only then did Riko appear at the corner and be late. She did not have makeup, but she was as beautiful as a princess in a fairy tale world, which made my heartbeat slow down. We all chose purple in good agreement. Purple sweater. Purple dress. It looks like a sister outfit that was matched beforehand.

I swiped my transportation card, took the escalator, and got on the tram. With the sound of the whistle, the tram galloped on the track. In the crowd, we all stood, always keeping a proper distance. I dare not look directly into her eyes—sweaty palms. The brain is spinning fast. There were waves of ripples in my heart. My legs are numb. We only met at the graduation ceremony a week ago. However, no one spoke to break the silence. Maybe it was because I am used to being a "stranger." The air in the car suffocated me. The front seat was empty, and I planned to sit down but thought it was impolite to sit down alone when I heard that when I went out with my Japanese friends. Fortunately, a seat next to the next stop was also empty, and we sat down with a glance at each other. Still silent. I only dared to sit upright, with my back not leaning against the chair's back, with my feet close together and slightly exerting force, my hands clasped together on my legs, and my dull eyes looked forward numbly.

The brain is gradually blanking...tick to tick...I count every second; every second is as long as an hour. It is the longest time I have traveled from Higashikoganei Station to Shinjuku Station. I want to squeeze the phone in my hand, but this is also impolite. I want to chat, but her lips are closed and she is uncomfortable. The tram was swaying, drowsiness hit, and the upper and lower eyelids began to fight. I held on, and when I was almost unable to hold on, the train finally drove into Shinjuku Station.

We changed to the Rinkai Line and went directly to Tokyo TV Tower Station. After leaving the station, we decided to stroll around. I have visited Odaiba countless times, but this is Riko's first time. First, we walked to the sky bridge across the street from Odaiba Seaside Park.

We have walked this road several times, but our mood is different.

We did not hold hands; we did not have physical contact; our paces were also inconsistent, and we were trying our best to cater to each other's pace.



"The weather today is so good. The sky is so blue." I said.

"Well, it's a sunny day." Riko agreed.

Keep going.

There was a bright sun with a cloudless cobalt sky... The sun shone slightly, heating the skin, dispelling the only cold. The breath of cherry blossoms in the breeze turned out to be the result of the row of cherry trees under the overpass. Behind the cherry trees was the sapphire sea; a replica of the Statue of Liberty stood in front, beautiful and dignified. At the maglev station, we turned. After walking straight for a while, we saw a sea of ​​tulips and cherry blossoms; the bees played hide and seek with the flowers as they buzzed from one to another, and the rich fragrance hit the senses.. In addition, there are bustling crowds and a large robot. He can reach the sky with his hand as he stands tall. Walking side by side across the road paved by cherry trees, petals fly overhead, falling to the ground like snowflakes. As the cherry trees on both sides fell backward, I could not help but sigh: This is the first time I have seen Odaiba, which is rendered in pink.

Lunch was in a Chinese restaurant in a shopping mall resembling Venice. Inadvertently solved the misunderstanding in the first grade. In some words, some things will become obsessions. Once you open your mind, you will get rid of it and finally let go.

We chose to spend the most prominent time in the day in Teamlab. We met our mother at the entrance. Riko seemed to be trembling after seeing her, and the familiarity he had finally built up disappeared. This embarrassing scene seemed to take me back to the depressing car in the morning.

       Mother just sent us in and found an excuse to leave. It was time for the two of us to spend time together. As soon as you enter, there are three forks in the road, like a fork in life. Riko and I chose the leftmost route. It was very dim inside, and I could not see my fingers; I could only vaguely see the road under my feet; maybe the air conditioner was turned on, and the cool wind was blowing on my body. Goosebumps were all over my body, and I felt terrified.

"It's so dark; it won't be easy to find if we get separated." Then, I leaned forward and took Riko's arm, and half of my body was attached to her.

This action is so natural. Maybe it is because it is too dark here, so we are all a little scared. But, the scene gave us a push, bringing us closer. After that, we got acquainted with each other and never let go of our hands. My heart wall seemed shattered, like an old friend I had not seen for many years.

At the end of the dark tunnel, you see a scene of flowers blooming and butterflies scurrying. We had entered a dream world composed of light, and everything that happens in it was like a dream. It felt like we lost track of time. We drew a fish together and wrote V&R on it, which is the first letter of our name. It is a testimony of our friendship. We released this fish in the sea on the screen and let our company be like this fish, swimming in the vast ocean. The other thing that impressed me the most was a 5D movie. We lay on a hammock and looked up at the starry sky. As the film changed, the starry sky changed. I felt the tremendous energy of the universe. This is the enjoyment of sight, hearing, smell, and touch.

We stayed for more than three hours. Stepping out of Teamlab... It is getting brighter... The dazzling sunlight outside shines into my eyes. I wake up like a dream; everything that happens inside is like a dream. The story between Riko and me is also like a dream.

After that, we went back to the sky bridge again, but without the strangeness of the morning, Riko became talkative. We passed the Statue of Liberty and walked to the seaside park. The sea is close at hand, overlooking the Rainbow Bridge that connects the bay. There was not much wind and waves that day. The white waves in the sea waved against the reefs on the shore repeatedly, and the sea breeze brought the salty seawater smell. A cruise ship slowly passed by. Then a burst of laughter caught our attention. It turned out that there were a group of female students in uniform sitting on the reef right now; they were eating and frolicking.

At my suggestion, we took a video on the shore.

"Hello, everyone. I'm Vivian. Today is March 28, 2021. I came to Odaiba with Riko..." Riko talks less like a mimosa in front of the camera, almost all of me alone. Introduce with interest.

Suddenly hearing the mother's voice behind us, we turned our heads abruptly. It was my mother. She took us the only group photo in the past three years except for the group photo. It was dusk, and the sky was rendered orange without knowing it. The setting sun towards the west is big and warm, and the scene in front of me is poetic like a filter.

We went to a shopping mall for milk tea. I ordered a cup of cherry blossom milk tea. There, I finally took off my last guard. I watched the brown pearls pass through her straw with milk tea.

After taking a deep breath, he said, "This is the memoir I once wrote. It tells the story of our first year, and there is no falsehood. If you want, read it."

I passed the phone over. She was the first classmate to read this memoir. The article describes the world from my perspective. Riko read every word patiently and carefully, and the names of the characters in the memoirs have been revised, but Riko's fiery eyes know who is who. This is not only because she is a friend, but because most of my friends in the first grade were introduced by her.

After drinking the milk tea, the sound of the sky has wholly dimmed, and there is no aftermath, replaced by the brightly lit and bustling city around. We walked to see the Ferris wheel and stepped into the cherry blossom road. Now there were no people, and it seemed a little quiet. This time I held my phone while chatting while recording video. Finally we arrived at the observation car, looking at the huge observation car in front of us; it kept changing colors and playing different lights. It is a beautiful landscape at night. Riko and I looked at each other and laughed unanimously because we both thought of one thing-another mutual friend of the two of us; after graduation, she went to the amusement park to ride the Ferris wheel, but she was stuck at the top due to the earthquake. She was scared to death.

We embarked on the tram for the return journey. On the tram, we chatted about one topic after another — feelings about the passing of junior high school life. Talk to mutual friends, about the memoir that I just finished reading and about the experience of the entrance examination. There are many more... Riko said that she missed her second year the most because everyone was already familiar with each other, but it was not hindered by the new crown epidemic like the third year. The mobile classroom in the second year of junior high school was the most memorable activity for her, but it was a pity that I did not participate in that activity.

In a blink of an eye, I returned to Higashikoganei Station, but I felt it hadn't been long since I got on the train.

"I am pleased today, thank you," Riko said.

"Yeah, so did I. We stayed in Odaiba for eight hours, the same time as usual at school," I said.

"Yeah. But it feels so fast."

"Good times are always fleeting. We are so happy. I'm glad I chose the right place. I was worried that you didn't like it before."

"That place is amazing; I didn't know there was such a place. But there is still something to do in my house, and I have to go home quickly."

"Oh~, that's it."

She got on her bicycle and went away.

I yelled at her back, "I have a chance to play together again in the future!"

"Hmm!" she replied.

In the middle of the night, the night wind swished into the room from the half-open window, bringing some coolness. I can think clearly. It was not until that day that I realized that encounters between people are fate, and some people will eventually come together after walking around. Even if people who can talk to each other are separated for a long time, as long as they have the opportunity, they can still be like the original. It turns out that everything will never know what will happen without waiting until the last minute.

        A pink cherry blossom drifted over the eaves of the window at some point and landed next to my hand, dyeing this memory with scarlet marks...

*  Due OCT 21, 2021. Translated from Chinese.
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